Monday, May 5, 2014

"Your getting pierced"

The weekend was rather uneventful in regards to kink, I spent some time volunteering at a local food bank a few towns over. On Sunday though she informed me of something rather strange to me; she told me I was going to get a frenum piercing in a month, so that my current jail bird would become fully escape proof. I'm not sure how I feel about this, it's not that I'm scared of the piercing, it's the feeling of that being a big step...it feels so permanent. I guess she's getting serious. Will post in detail tomorrow, be careful what you wish for.

Friday, May 2, 2014

The boy who cried wolf

The boy who cried wolf...we've all heard the story, the proverbial tale of a boy who lied to manipulate a situation one too many times, and it ended up costing him. I learned the lesson of that tale today, in one of my whining sessions which ended up not only costing me....but solidifying an inner fear. Today I tried to talk my way out of chastity, and trying to for stall this process for another thirty days. I explained my reasoning and explained I was being genuine in that reason, she listened attentively and laughed at the end. I begged, I threw so many excuses at her, and every time I said "no" she just kept adding it up in her head how many spankings I was going to get. She then explained the tale of the boy who cried wolf, telling me the whole story which I already knew.
"You've lied and tried to get out of this too many times...you've cried wolf once too many, and this time it won't work. Because unfortunately for you, I like this...and we haven't even started, but I'm getting better and I'm sorry you thought this would last a "week" but sadly, for you, you were wrong this time." She said with smile on her face, what scared me is I could tell she was being genuine.
She continued "I know this is hard, and its going to get harder, but remember you wanted this... years ago you said you wanted to be fully controlled, and thats whats happening. Soon your soul purpose will be pleasing me, your basically going to be brain washed...you need to get two things out of your head...resisting me and thinking your still a man. Your going to be trained, and between punishment and your hypnosis files your going to become a sissy, your going to become my slave. Another issue is you don't go down on me...that's going to change, we're going to get you so good at that so I never even have the thought of wanting your cock again. I'm sorry but this is the way its going to be now, honestly I don't think theres a thing you could say to make me change my mind. The fact that your whining about this has made me disappointed, so your going to spend a lot more time in your isolation room so you can think about what you've done, and start accepting this. I'm in control, I make all your choices now, that's not changing, be careful what you ask for".
And with that I got up and left the house to run some errands, I'm worried now yet I know I shouldn't be...I guess what you think will be "fun" can turn out to be a nightmare, fears are running through my head; no more sex again? Just a strap on? What if I become dependent on diapers? How can I sleep comfortably in a cage or crib? Will she tell her friends? Will they get involved? My mind is racing with a million questions, all I know is I think I have a very humiliating, and sexually frustrating road ahead of me... When she get done talking I had the balls to try and bargain, I told her if she waited I would get her the isolation hood and Max Cita strait jacket she's been wanting... she laughed and smiled stating "Your going to get me those anyway silly! Order more diapers, if I "run out" your going to be in more trouble than you can imagine."  I'm currently sitting in bed waiting her to get back home from a friends, I hope she's home soon...my chastity device is killing me.   Maybe I should except it, maybe subcontiously I already am...when I came into the bed room I got out a diaper, my plastic panties and the powder and set them on the night stand.

Tightening her grip.

Thursday May 1st-

Last night was a change of pace I suppose, when she got home she told me it was time for my spanking... apparently this is going to be a daily thing, she turned me over her knee, my chastity device nestled between her legs and she began to spank me with her bare hands. It didn't hurt, I guess this annoyed her and she pulled a wooden spoon out from the drawer. She spanked me around 25 times with the spoon, when my ass was red enough she decided she was done, they didn't hurt to be honest. She diapered me and when we laid down, she began to rant about how she's sick of me not taking this seriously. The first thing she told me was to stop touching her ass, and that I was no longer allowed to use the word "no" when speaking to her. She also explained that I was not to start direct conversations with her. After she chewed me out she fell asleep, I awoke this morning to her putting my chastity device on me and I was off to work. When I got home she arrived shortly after, I was sitting on the couch in my boxers, she was not amuzed. We sat on the couch and handled some home matters for about an hour, she then led me to the bed room and told me it was time for my spanking. She spanked a lot harder this time,  she kept asking me questions and when I replied with "no" she just kept spanking me more. It hurt, yet I was no where near crying, I doubt I ever will be. After she got done she told me to put on some panties and cook her dinner, when we were through eating she told me to get to cleaning, and put on my posture collar since I had been "bitching". I wasn't really happy about this and complained about wearing the collar since it was uncomfortable, she was livid. She grabbed the loop and led me to the bedroom where my small isolation room is (she earlier post), she yelled for me to get in and left me in darkness for around an hour. I flooded my diaper while curled up inside, when she finally let me out she mocked me for this, spanked the back of my thighs and sent me to continue cleaning. When I was done I asked her if I could lay down, she said I could and after putting on my plastic diaper covers I fell asleep.

Friday May 2nd-

Waking up she was out the door, she didn't take my diaper off and expected me to put my chastity device on, I wish she wouldn't trust me so much. With much resistance I put it on and left for work, we'll see what tonight has in store.