Monday, October 13, 2014

A busy unlocked weekend!


A very busy weekend it was! We had several events with friends on Friday and Saturday which took us away from home for the weekend. It was fun, yet it made the weekend go by so fast! She took my chastity device off for both occasions as she was with me and it makes an obvious impression in suit pants. Saturday night though we returned home and were both pretty intoxicated, she didn’t put my diaper or device back on and we ended up having sex. She was not happy about that in the morning, saying I took advantage of her being drunk, well I was drunk and she helped me get it started! LOL. She enjoyed it, as did I, yet that still didn’t curb her frustration given what happened. “Your in so much trouble…” was all she said. I told her while we were having sex she could extend my chastity stent to 90 days, she has not told me what the release date it yet. Sunday we had a productive day and (cage and diaper free) I led the charge on detailing our entire home. It looks so good, and she was beyond happy with the progress. Towards the later part of Sunday evening she kept saying she wanted to get me back in my device and diaper, I told her once we finished the house I would. She works well off motivation, yet in reality I shouldn’t be giving her ultimatums, but if I can get away with it…I see no reason to stop. I’m sure she figures I “got off” during this time, she hasn’t asked and I doubt I would admit I did (I don’t want her to be angry). Before we laid down she crammed me back into my super small chastity device and diapered me very tight “These aren’t coming off again…get comfy”. She scolded me again about sex the night before, and reiterated her want of a crib.

We’ve agreed I would convert a wooden framed twin bed into a “crib”, I have a feeling the spare bedroom we don’t use often is basically going to be converted into “my room”.  She’s expressed the need for a changing table, fully enclosed “crib”, high chair, and one other addition I plan on surprising her with. I’m going to make an “isolation box”,  a fully enclosed box which will be sound proof, very small, and very crammed. I think it will be useful for her with punishment and deterring me from acting out.  The crib were sketching up is going to be far from comfy as well. She was persistent on using an actual crib, yet my concerns with not being able to fully stretch out won. The crib will not be tall enough for me to sit up, I will be able to lie down, have her strap me to the bed, and she can lock the top. There’s a picture of the design were aiming for in an old post of mine. One thing did startle me, I woke up in an absolute mess, and I really don’t remember doing it. This did make her happy, so we’ll see how that progresses. It’s a good thing shes not a nurse and catheters scare me, I have a feeling I’d have one of those in all the time…though the thought of loosing all control is exciting, yet scary.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

October update, slow and steady win the race


To pick up where I left off, that night she ended up putting me in a new diaper as we layed down for bed. She didn’t want to smell it all night and realized with how bad the mess was I’d more than likely get a rash. She is slowly getting back into a rhythm of things; it’s pretty simple honestly… She text me a list of chores to do when I get home, my chastity device doesn’t come off, and a diaper is put over it at some point in the evening. The other night I woke up to a terrible pain, the chastity device digging into me as the diaper pressed it further into my body. In a zombie like state I got up, removed the diaper and left it on the bathroom floor and went back to bed. She was irate in the morning, and everynight since when I’m diapered she puts the thick locking fetware diaper covers on.  I guess I’m getting used to being in the chastity so much, before it came off everynight, which at least enabled me to stretch. Not now. I know she will slowly add more and more, if she goes at her own pace then she is certain she’ll be successful. I do have a feeling and she’s stated she we’ll be doing much more age regression. She didn’t like the idea last year, but for some reason I think this time will be different.  Still things aren’t super strict, When she diapers me I put shorts on immediately to cover them up, that use to be a no-no. So I suppose time will only tell, I hate that I’m not in “sub space”. I prolly wont get in that place in my mind for months. I jokingly asked her to send me to a boot camp to speed things up, she said “its obvious you want to, so no”.  As my frustration builds over the next 40 days I’m sure this will be easier. I currently hate putting the diaper on, its no longer a feeling of comfort as it was before when my device came off when it went on. I know this evening she has something planned, I’ve gotten back to the house late every night so far this week due to work. I have a busy weekend ahead of me, so look for updates early next week. On another note I hope Susan over at “All mine” is doing ok, it’s been nearly six months since they have updated their blog, I hope Tammy, Jay, and she are doing well.  It’s hard to say where we will be in a few months, we love feed back, keep commenting!

Monday, October 6, 2014

be careful

Be careful what you wish for. I've been back in Chastity for two days, the device never comes off. It stays on even diapered. I'm currently sitting, locked, in two abena m4's with 2 bambino quadro stuffers, inside of them is a 2 quart enema I had to hold for 10 minutes. Topped with locking plastic panties, I'm uncomfy, I feel gross, I want a change and won't get one till morning. I'll update soon

Monday, July 28, 2014

Hate hurting her.

I think it's sad I'm so selfish at times, that I choose to jack off rather than have Sex with my own wife.   Maybe I deserve what's coming. We've had some delays in starting, yet last week she found a huge stash of my rags and boxer I used to jack off in. She was so sad and angry, she said "I finally understand why women turn their husbands into cuckolds. In time I'm going to have to find someone else, because this is so out of hand". I truly don't like hurting her, yet today she found another huge stash under the bed, she looked crushed. We had to run some errands and she was pretty quiet, I said I need to find a restroom in the store and all she said was "soon you won't have to worry about that" and walked off. I'm my own undoing I guess, she has plans apparently, I suppose we will see.

Monday, June 16, 2014

Preparing for the long haul

I know this blog seems like a roller coaster; on and off, yet there are reasons for that. Last month Mistress and myself had a MAJOR life event, don't worry it's a good thing! We needed to enjoy that to the fullest, no kinks attached! Now that it has passed we and she specifically have so much more free time, which means she finally a gets to partake in the lifestyle she's always wanted... Without any distractions. My chastity device clicked closed' this morning, I'm sitting in bed in a very dirty diaper right now... I just ordered 200 Abena M4's, 160 bambino booster pads, a new enema and a pink onesie at her direction. Sex for me is over for along time, I won't be getting off for the next 4 months. This king size bed won't be mine to use next week, I'm switching to a 54 inch dog kennel as my new sleeping arrangement.  After years of trying it's finally here, I hope you enjoy the upcoming journey.

Monday, May 5, 2014

"Your getting pierced"

The weekend was rather uneventful in regards to kink, I spent some time volunteering at a local food bank a few towns over. On Sunday though she informed me of something rather strange to me; she told me I was going to get a frenum piercing in a month, so that my current jail bird would become fully escape proof. I'm not sure how I feel about this, it's not that I'm scared of the piercing, it's the feeling of that being a big step...it feels so permanent. I guess she's getting serious. Will post in detail tomorrow, be careful what you wish for.

Friday, May 2, 2014

The boy who cried wolf

The boy who cried wolf...we've all heard the story, the proverbial tale of a boy who lied to manipulate a situation one too many times, and it ended up costing him. I learned the lesson of that tale today, in one of my whining sessions which ended up not only costing me....but solidifying an inner fear. Today I tried to talk my way out of chastity, and trying to for stall this process for another thirty days. I explained my reasoning and explained I was being genuine in that reason, she listened attentively and laughed at the end. I begged, I threw so many excuses at her, and every time I said "no" she just kept adding it up in her head how many spankings I was going to get. She then explained the tale of the boy who cried wolf, telling me the whole story which I already knew.
"You've lied and tried to get out of this too many times...you've cried wolf once too many, and this time it won't work. Because unfortunately for you, I like this...and we haven't even started, but I'm getting better and I'm sorry you thought this would last a "week" but sadly, for you, you were wrong this time." She said with smile on her face, what scared me is I could tell she was being genuine.
She continued "I know this is hard, and its going to get harder, but remember you wanted this... years ago you said you wanted to be fully controlled, and thats whats happening. Soon your soul purpose will be pleasing me, your basically going to be brain washed...you need to get two things out of your head...resisting me and thinking your still a man. Your going to be trained, and between punishment and your hypnosis files your going to become a sissy, your going to become my slave. Another issue is you don't go down on me...that's going to change, we're going to get you so good at that so I never even have the thought of wanting your cock again. I'm sorry but this is the way its going to be now, honestly I don't think theres a thing you could say to make me change my mind. The fact that your whining about this has made me disappointed, so your going to spend a lot more time in your isolation room so you can think about what you've done, and start accepting this. I'm in control, I make all your choices now, that's not changing, be careful what you ask for".
And with that I got up and left the house to run some errands, I'm worried now yet I know I shouldn't be...I guess what you think will be "fun" can turn out to be a nightmare, fears are running through my head; no more sex again? Just a strap on? What if I become dependent on diapers? How can I sleep comfortably in a cage or crib? Will she tell her friends? Will they get involved? My mind is racing with a million questions, all I know is I think I have a very humiliating, and sexually frustrating road ahead of me... When she get done talking I had the balls to try and bargain, I told her if she waited I would get her the isolation hood and Max Cita strait jacket she's been wanting... she laughed and smiled stating "Your going to get me those anyway silly! Order more diapers, if I "run out" your going to be in more trouble than you can imagine."  I'm currently sitting in bed waiting her to get back home from a friends, I hope she's home soon...my chastity device is killing me.   Maybe I should except it, maybe subcontiously I already am...when I came into the bed room I got out a diaper, my plastic panties and the powder and set them on the night stand.