What to do...What to do...

 I suppose somethings take time to fall in place, I spoke in my last post about my fear this would devolve down the path of me being subjected to these tribulations while she lived a very vanilla life. Monday during the day she began texting me about how she doesn't believe I was taking the process seriously. In all honesty, I wasn't. She explained how she was getting very upset I don't listen to her, I apologized yet I had no intention of stopping my behavior, because there were no repercussions for living my normal life and doing what ever I wanted to do. When she called me after work she began saying some odd things "Your going to start drinking my urine, daily" "I think we should play a game where you drink a lot of liquids and are forced to wet yourself...in your panties not your diapers" Amongst other things. This was odd to me but I decided not to dwell on it.  When I arrived home she was leaving to go have dinner with friends, which I was upset about seeing as I never see her. I cleaned up a little bit and spent a few hours on netflix, at this time my chastity device was really annoying me. When she finally got home she kindly put me into my diaper, which meant the cage come off! I'm so much more comfortable in them!!!! Especially since my new cage is tighter, anyways when we laid down she made me literally kiss her ass before she went to sleep...and after I did that she asked me a strange question:
"So I need to know something, have you always wanted to be controlled by a dominant women".
I didn't answer, instead sending more questions her way "What do you mean controlled?"
She replied by saying "having every aspect of your life controlled, everything, have you always wanted that? I need to know before we move further in this process"
"So if I say no can we stop playing and I don't wear the cage anymore?"
She laughed really hard "No, not hardly...your stuck with that now, I just need to know to understand how I'm going to proceed".

I awoke this morning to her un tapping my diaper, which a welcomed feeling since it was soaked. My dick was already harder than steel, she began cleaning me up and then she climbed on top of me and we had sex, for about two minutes, I was still waking up or I know I would have gotten off. After a lot of teasing last night and that show this morning, my balls are aching beyond belief! She put my cage back on and left for work, sadly when I arrived home for lunch I noticed she left the key on the night stand again.... it makes me sad, because even though she says she "forgets" it makes me sad because I feel its just me going through this.  Despite the fact she text me through out the day, randomly mentioning things about it... When were home, nothing happens. Her threats carry no weight, and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to get better with empty threats. So right now I'm sitting here in bed, she's watching T.V. and I guess I'm about to go to sleep.  I guess I'll get diapered soon, thats if she remembers.